So I worked a full week at work and then when my kids came home this past week I only worked three half-days. Being off was good, I was able to get a lot of stuff done like school shopping, dentist appointments and school enrollment. But Monday I go back full time. Now, the first week I worked full time, I had a real hard time with it. There were moments that I prayed not to just get up and walk out. These feelings alarmed me, I didn't know where they were coming from. Was it the job, the work, the place, the people, what? I thought about it all last week and this week and tried to put my finger on just what it was that was causing these urges to quit. About Thursday of this week, I think I had my answer.
The problem is me.
I just don't want to work. I am used to staying home and I want to continue staying home. Well, staying home is not a feasible option. So I just have to get over it and haul my sorry self into work. I will have to (sigh) adjust. Over the next few weeks there will be more adjusting around here as Leo starts middle school and Max starts college. I'm sure it will be easier for them than it has been for me. I have gone back into the workforce before after periods of stay-at-home-mom life and I have never had such a hard time with it. When did I become so set in my ways? PS That is a rhetorical question, family members and friends need not answer! :-)